Creating space in my head. I said this to a friend recently. When it comes to Being My True Self, one of the most important things necessary for me, is to create space for it. Not just physical space for it (although this is necessary too). Not even just space in time (this is definitely important!) But, space in your head, mental space.
I had so many other things running through my mind, that there wasn’t any room for me to Be My True Self.
Lol, de-cluttering my own head! Phew! That’s more than a weekend chore! There is a lifetime of s*** piled up in there. A lifetime of “I should”… of other people’s “shoulds”… I should be this, I should be that, I should be doing this, I should be doing that, why isn’t this better or that better, it should be… what’s wrong with me… the next thing to do, the next place to go…… And just when I get rid of one of those, ten more pop up!
This is a work in progress. This is not done yet. But I’m working on it! I have noticed that when I am at home, I am programmed to behave in a certain way. Its hard to break free, but as soon as I get out of the house, my mind seems to engage in a much different way. Especially when I am driving (you may have noticed that I mention often recording while I’m driving… probably because it gives my mind a chance to finally be free of whatever confines were holding it in).
One of the biggest things, I have noticed for myself, is tv… I feel like I’ve gotta see that show, I gotta find out what happens to those people…. So, I have been planning to shut off cable… for a month now… hmmm, I am obviously procrastinating…. AND after watching the Oscars and some amazing speeches and being reminded that movies/shows are meant to evoke emotion, to stir us, to get us up, to get us thinking….
So, the trick will be to create the space enough for both without that need to figure out what happens that takes over everything else…. Taking things as they are, in the moment, and then letting them go… Or doing something with them. But not just letting them rattle around in my head, because then they just get in the way, they get in the way of Being My True Self, being in touch with my greatness, being in touch with the wonders that the world has to offer.
“Jerk!” Lol… that was for the driver in front of me who just cut me off, as I’m recording this driving down the road…. But, there you go, perfect example, mojo/flow is gone! That quickly. He got into my head… no, no, no, I let him into my head. Thinking about him and the unfairness of his actions, instead of my ideas…
Creating space… enough space to allow for entertainment like movies/tv shows, and also for “jerks”, to pop in and then pop out of my head without interrupting or getting in the way of me Being My True Self.