After a lifetime of not feeling like I fit in anywhere, it is a wonderful feeling to have found my tribe!! Those people that are like me on a deeper level. Those people that accept me for who I am… even if they don’t understand all of it.
This is such a novel concept for me. I have felt like I was on the outside looking in… that sounds a bit cliche, but in this case it fits, so I’ll use it… I’ve always felt like I didn’t fit in even when I worked really hard to look the part, put all the pieces together to make me like the others…
I know, why, right? Idk!! Honestly!! It goes back to the concept that we are handed or given a rulebook to live our lives by, that was written by someone else, for someone else…. which, by nature, can’t work, because the only rulebook that is right for me, could only be written by me! And I hadn’t written one yet!
Now that I have thrown that rulebook out, and started writing my own… well, I have an issue with the idea of living my life by a set of “rules”, so, I’m not writing a rulebook… I guess you could say that I’m writing a play book. Its full of the plays that I’ve tried… and how each of them turned out. Some of them were not what I had envisioned (I retire those as soon as I figure that out) and some have worked out fabulously (I am working on duplicating them whenever possible!)
So, back to the idea of my tribe. Now that I’m living my life based on my own play book, I am finding my tribe! And, again, I’m loving it!! It feels amazing to surround myself with them… and stay there. This is where my struggle comes in. Do I stay within my tribe? Or do I venture out? I mean, on the one hand, if I stay in my tribe am I going to be able to live out my life’s purpose? My True Self says no… But, I my human side or ego argues, but it took so long to find them! And, if we (this is my ego talking to me, me being My True Self…just roll with it for a moment, please) venture out too far, we may lose touch with who we really are again, do you really want to do that?
This is the struggle… how to maintain the integrity of the True Self while living our True Self’s life purpose… For me, being with my tribe bolsters the knowing of My True Self… helps me stay anchored, solidly, in the knowledge of who I am on a much deeper and larger level. When I’m with my tribe… I don’t have to sensor myself. I can show all the multi-faceted parts of who I am and I don’t have to worry that any of them will be challenged or judged. Actually, its the opposite, they are honored and valued!! This helps me then be able to go out into the world (so to speak) and live my life’s purpose, which includes helping others to be able to accept people that are different than them… to accept themselves for who they were meant to be! To see and accept their True Selves!!
And I can only do that when I am fully Being My True Self! Today that means acknowledging, honoring, and reveling in my tribe! You know who you are and I love you with every bit of stardust I’m made!!