Wrecking Balls

Wrecking balls. Ever feel like you keep getting knocked over… seemingly every step you take? You get up, just to get knocked over again? And not just tipped over or ever pushed over, but wrecking ball knocked off your feet, over?

Well, I have felt this way. Often, actually. I’ve worked really hard in my life to learn to manage this. And I think I’m done a pretty fantastic job of it, too.

In fact, I don’t even see these things as wrecking balls any more. They are simply events that we, as humans, have decided are really catastrophic… like super awful. I learned a long time ago that every event in my life has had a purpose and does have a purpose, including these ones I’m referring to now.

I also believe that what is, is. In other words, what is happening is already happening… I mean literally the moment something happens it becomes history, so… not changing that. So, what is, is. I’ve learned to accept that and just kind of move on, even in the moment (I’m getting much better at this).

I also believe in the power of positive thinking. Not the “blowing smoke” kind of fairies and pixie dust kind of positive thinking, but looking for the positive aspects of things and situations. Because I believe there is a positive side to everything.

But, I heard something recently that got me to thinking about this all in a different way… basically putting it all together. I really can choose to be happy. I’ve noticed recently that when I tune into what I want to be true for my life, I will spontaneously smile. Like an authentic smile, not some fake, plastered on curving of my lips, but a real smile… sometimes a smirk or that little kind off smile you reserve for those cute, endearing kinds of things.

Anyways, this is shifting how I experience the world. And its helping me get in touch with what I really want in my life. I want to laugh so hard I’m afraid I’ll pee myself. I want to skip around outside. I want to snuggle up and feel a loved ones envelope me. I want to be of service in a big way. I want to share my gifts with the world! I want life to be simple. I want to interact with people on a regular basis that excite me, that challenge me to be a better person, that respect me, all of me. I want my body to feel alive again!!!

Today… Being My True Self means living with a passion that I have deep in my body… tapping into my soul’s zest for having a human experience… whatever that is and not labeling it as either good or bad. And doing it with a smile on my face.

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I am on a journey .... By title I am a Licensed Professional Clinical Counselor. I have been called friend, girlfriend, wife, mom... among other labels. But I am a loving, caring being that lives through these labels and titles to help and heal others while I am here.

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