All of those things had to happen… and they had to happen just the way they… happened (quite simply). Those things, being those things in my life that I thought were “horrible” or at least negative in some way or that are deemed as such by others… As I sit here typing (or is it keying or keyboarding….?) this and finding myself saying that, yet again, makes me wonder just what kind of world we live in… and further more, makes me wonder if I want to be a part of it. But that is a tangent I will follow later.
These things serve a couple of purposes.They help me to learn a particular lesson, to help me be who I am, to let me have that experience, possibly something I came here to experience purposefully to learn humility, or gratitude, or some other life lesson that is important to My True Self. I am grateful for these experiences because I know that I am a better person for them, even though they are not always pleasant to experience.
But these things are also a product of me not listening to My True Self. Historically, things had to be REALLY uncomfortable… and this is recent history too, not just ancient history. Things had to be really uncomfortable in order for me to decide to make a change… and I would often be railing against the situation or “thing” the whole time. And if I sit back and look at those things, there were other signs that it was time to change, move on, that that wasn’t the thing to do. But I often didn’t listen. I chose a different path. Usually because people in my life said that I couldn’t… or that I “should” do something else… that kind of stuff…. And to be perfectly honest, my own human voice was in there too telling me that I wasn’t good enough, strong enough, smart enough, pretty enough…… that it would be too hard. Reflections of the past (a phrase I heard recently… and I like a lot) and nothing more… I’m moving on!!
For example, where I’m at, right now, with my work… I could have been here… many, many years before, right out of grad school… the same opportunity was presented to me then, it was there! But I was too scared. Caught up in thinking I needed to do any particular thing for the kids, with the kids, for the house… so I didn’t take the opportunity.
Of course, all that being said, I learned a lot in the mean time, I don’t regret it at all. I have learned from it that if I just listen to My True Self, it knows the way, whether I can see the way or believe it is possible or not, my Soul knows the way. Here’s to Being My True Self today and every day from this day forward… with no apologies!!!