After a rough month of self doubt about who I am and my purpose, culminating into what ended up being a rough night last night and a sense of utter defeat with a desire to give up. I awoke this morning with a renewed sense of purpose and focus! My focus feel laserbeam this morning!!! I am feeling… unapologetically Me and Being My True Self in a way that I haven’t felt for …. a few months, at least!
I have been floundering a bit for the past six months… I would say. Roughly about the time I stopped posting these blogs regularly. Which is really wonderous to me because some amazing things have been happening over these past six months! In fact… a lot has changed.
I am feeling much better physically … actually, now that I think about it, its only been this past month that I have been experiencing old physical symptoms… hmmm.. that is something worth noting!
I have met some amazing people that have enriched my life beyond measure! My chosen family is how I like to think of them.
I have made great strides in my work and chosen profession, attending a training that I have been wanting to complete for several years and putting it to use in my daily practice and my professional practice.
I am making different choices about how I live my life, from what I eat to how I communicate with people. I am listening more and more to my body and my soul and making choices that are informed through those sources and not from those around me.
I have made progress is moving forward with my life the way that I want to rather than the way I was taught I should live my life.
None of this has been easy. Its been a bumpy road and I have faltered along the way. And I have or, in some cases, felt like I should, apologize for the decisions that I have been making. Well, no more! I am not going to apologize for believing what I believe and making the choices that I am making! If that means that people unfriend me, either in real life or on facebook, then so be it. I have always said that those people weren’t meant to be in my life anyway, but had trouble actually standing up for myself, My True Self, in the face of such things.
I am only here for a short time (in the grand scheme of things) and I came here with big… no BIG plans and goals! And I’m ready to hit the pavement running and not look back and not apologize! I am not going to omit pieces of me to make other comfortable any more!! (saw this on facebook this morning on a meme from Unify… facebook is good for some things! 🙂 )
I am immensely grateful to my birth family and my chosen family and friends for being there for me and supporting me in their unique and individual ways! I Love all of you!!